My Dusty Old Shelf

Half a year has passed since I started in Queen's and I have to admit that it's hard .  No I know studying for a degree isn't a walk in the park or what but it's just so much harder than I anticipated it to be. Long hours in class, journeys to the hospital etc. And when I have free time, I feel guilty if I don't study. Whaaaaaaaat is that?  I've been having second thoughts about my future and I'm still feeling undecided.  Just hoping to clear things out really really soon or I might burst.  So now, I'm currently on my Spring break for three weeks. And after some deliberating, I chose to spend my spring break in Malaysia. Kumpul semangat orang kata. InsyaAllah.

Tomorrow is the second Monday of the second semester. Life passes us by just like that , doesn't it? Second semester proves to be far more challenging than the first. And I practically crawled through my first semester. Gah. So how will I get through my second semester? Any way of travelling that is more loser-y than crawling. Results come out in two days and I expect the worse. Not being a pessimist or anything. I know my input, I predict my output. My input was minimal so I guess my output will be dismal. But still, faith in Allah right? Haha what is this Nabilah, tawakal tanpa usaha -___- Well anyway, on a brighter note, I'm 21! Like two weeks ago. Hahaha 21st birthday on the 21st of January. Alhamdulillah, I've been given a chance to go through another year, in hopes that I will be closer to Allah. On an even bright er note, I celebrated my birthday three times this year. Hahaha First, with the girls of my house who baked me an awesome cheesecake e...

Lately, I've been feeling like I am so far away from Allah... And it makes me feel guilty that I've only come to realise this when I'm struggling for my exams. Astaghfirullah. Nak jadi apa ni Nabilah...  Yet Allah gives me another chance. Again, and again, and again. How amazing is He... This made me realise that I have no rights whatsoever over anything. Forgive, forget, give another chance. If Allah, Tuhan kita yang Maha Besar tu boleh asyik bagi kita peluang no matter how many times we screw up like hell, kita ni siapa nak marah orang kalau dia buat silap? "You take one step towards Allah, He will take ten steps towards you. If you walk towards Allah, He will run towards you."  -Hadith Qudsi- How small, insignificant and dismal we are. How amazing is He. Yet we act like we don't need Him. Learn Nabilah, LEARN.

I just came back from Paris a few days ago from a six-day trip. 3 days in Disneyland and 3 days in the city of Paris. To write down everything that happened in those six days would be impossible, so I'll just mention the highlights of our trip. 1. Disneyland Paris! Second time here and I still found it to be as magical as it was 9 years ago. We stayed at Disney's Hotel Cheyenne. Our package entitled us to two extra hours before the park opens everyday! No queues and not many people so we could take loadsssss of pictures! We also had vouchers for all-you-can-eat buffets. So yes, if any of you are planning to go, trust me, a day is not enough. The average queue time for each ride is about 60 minutes. And Disneyland Paris is huge. 2. Arc de Triomphe You HAVE to be fit to reach the top of this monument. Entry is free for EU residents under 26. From the ticket booth to the top, there is a spiral staircase that seems endless. Haha The view from the top is definitel...

Being the only girl in the family, I'm a daddy's girl. I'm sure that's pretty standard for anyone who's the only daughter in the family. BUT from my dad's point of view, I'm daddy's little girl. Hahaha It's been exactly three months since I moved to Belfast and I don't think he's ever gonna get over it. His whatsapp status has been updated frequently with things like, "Miss my girl" "She's big now" And so on. Even his Whatsapp picture is a picture of the two of us. No matter how old I am, I will always be my daddy's little girl. And I miss both my parents very much. I'm sure anyone who's away from his/her parents is feeling the same thing. "Your Lord has ordained that you must not worship anything other than Him and that you must be kind to your parents."  Al-Quran, Surah Al-Isra' [17:23] From the Quranic verse above, it's amazingly clear how important they are in...

I'll be honest. There were moments where I was like 'What did I get myself into...'. Medical school is... to put simply, tough . And I'm only in my first semester! Whaaaaat. Actually, comparing to my friends who are in other medical schools, I have to admit that Queen's is much easier than the others. The system and stuff. Huh, if I wanted to explain about Queen's medical system, we'll be here until tomorrow. Whatever it is, here I am, with a presentation and an essay on stem cells that are both due on the same day. Breathe Nabilah. Only 15 more days to Paris :)

So, it's been over a month since I moved to Belfast. And I have to say that I love it here. The people, the pace, nearly everything. Just the weather didn't exactly make it into my good book. Haha I have lovely housemates. Classes are going well (I hope!). What else? I think I should just flood this post with pictures hahaha The landmark of Queen's Uni Belfast, the Lanyon Building ! Behind the Lanyon Building McClay Library Our Queen's has a quadrangle too okay. Do visit Belfast. It's a lovely city. No, I'm not biased.