Struggles.

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Half a year has passed since I started in Queen's and I have to admit that it's hard. 
No I know studying for a degree isn't a walk in the park or what but it's just so much harder than I anticipated it to be. Long hours in class, journeys to the hospital etc. And when I have free time, I feel guilty if I don't study. Whaaaaaaaat is that? 

I've been having second thoughts about my future and I'm still feeling undecided. 
Just hoping to clear things out really really soon or I might burst. 

So now, I'm currently on my Spring break for three weeks. And after some deliberating, I chose to spend my spring break in Malaysia. Kumpul semangat orang kata. InsyaAllah.

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