My Dusty Old Shelf

Only three months left until fourth year ends. And I still feel like I know nothing. It's actually kinda scary. In less than a year, I would be sitting my final, final exam. (Well given that I pass fourth year this summer...) And I would not trust my life to myself if I were my own doctor HAHAHA Okay no, please trust me, future patients!! This year has been pretty tough. A lot has happened and a lot are happening. I gotta step up my game. I haven't studied, let alone revise.  My plan is to khatam buku Clinical Specialties and Clinical Medicine. Because I am soooo lazy. And I think it's a start? Ngeheh :P I bought myself a £3 weekly organiser so I could trick myself into thinking that I am actually organised, in hopes that I will become organised at some point. Good luck lah kan. Well anyway, I cannot afford a resit this year. With electives, and my clinginess... I need my full summer break. It's already short enough as it is -__- Please pray f...

Soooooo overdue. I turned 24 almost 2 months ago. But I've gotten so bad at updating my blog, it's actually insane. So, 24. Almost a quarter of a century old. But to be honest, I still feel like I'm 18. (And hopefully look it too HAHA) I have achieved things that I want to achieve. And I also still have so much more to do. I have figured out some parts of my life, made plans for it, and hoping for the best. But I still have so much more to learn. I had one of the best birthdays this year. Showered with so many thoughtful wishes and prayers. And I was able to enjoy myself. Fully. I am blessed. Truly blessed. With everything that has happened this past year, I never thought I could be here. My 23rd year of living was a roller coaster ride. Fast, with sudden dives and totally not under my control. And this bliss that I feel right now, there's no word for it. To my 24th year of living, may it be filled with love, lessons and light. As it will be m...

On my 17th birthday in 2011, a little boy gave me this scarf. He said it was for me to bring along when I go and study overseas.  At that time, I had no idea if I even had the capability of doing so. I was 17. Far from finishing school. And my grades? Nowhere near good enough to study medicine in Malaysia, let alone overseas.  But this chubby-cheeked little boy thought that I would.  Three years later, I got an offer to study in Liverpool and Belfast (and of course I ended up going to Belfast).  What was the first thing I packed?  That lovely tartan scarf that was still neatly folded inside its box, and unused for four years. Fast forward 7 years, this scarf has kept me warm in Belfast, Paris, Copenhagen, Venice and the list goes on and will continue to grow. When he first saw photos of me wearing the scarf, he was so excited.  Little brother, thank you for believing in me when I never did.  Even back then. Because h...

Alhamdulillah. I recently turned 23 a few days ago. So hard to believe since I still feel like I'm fifteen sometimes haha. I have thoroughly enjoyed being 22. So many milestones, achievements, memories and of course, the usual challenges and obstacles. I know when I don't smile I look angry. I'm happy on the inside guys.  To Kak Mali, Kak Bella, Kak ZZ and Tsara, thank you so much for the cutest start to my birthday! It was a B&B themed birthday brunch. No idea why. But the cakes were yummy and the food were so good. Tsara & Kak ZZ got me the cuuuutest gift. In the evening, my friends came over to "surprise" me. It honestly was really awesome haha. Can't say much about it. They cooked and planned everything together. Some even decided to wear pink! My gert. Top L to R: Salman, Hazeem, Hafiz, Miriam, Peter, Eden. Bottom L to R: Nick, Michael, Sarah, moi, Okwu. I am just so so thankful to have these weirdos in my life. Th...

LONG OVERDUE POST. So, a few months ago, me and a few friends rented a car and drove to Ballycastle. Our main goal of the trip was to go to Rathlin Island, a small island off the coast of Antrim and the most northern point of Northern Ireland!  You can get to Rathlin by going through the motorway which would be much faster but we opted for the Coastal Route where we drove along Northern Ireland's gorgeous coastline.  I swear the longer journey was worth every minute!  From Ballycastle, we took a ferry to Rathlin. A return ticket costs  £ 12 for adults. Rathlin Island is home to many sea birds and wildlife that you wouldn't normally see. So this island is really popular amongst birdwatchers and biologists.  I would suggest buying the tickets in advance at the  Rathlin Ferry  website so you wouldn't have to wait around for the next available ferry. We arrived at 10am, hoping to get on the 11.15 ferry but had to wait for the 1pm one ...

Alhamdulillah, after quite a struggle, I finally made it to third year :) I finally made it to my clinical years! Yay meeeee. Halfway through my medical school journey I guess. Where did all the time go?  I honestly feel like I've just arrived in Belfast a few weeks ago. I've been trying to keep my sh*t together before I start third year. Honestly, I can't keep cutting my summer holiday short because of another resit exam -__- Ugh. Even though I keep screwing up, Allah still gives me a chance to keep going and I can't be any more thankful (or maybe I could...) You can do this Nabilah! New term resolutions coming up!

Alhamdulillah, we have reached the fourth night of Ramadhan. It feels great to be able to spend Ramadhan with my family. Ramadhan is a holy month where there is nothing stopping you from doing good, besides yourself. (Shaytaans have been tied up people. If we're still doing bad things, that's all on us). I hope that this can be a turning point for me, to properly improve myself. I hope both of us can make the best out of this month. Starting a life is not easy. And I hope that we both have enough knowledge and wisdom to embark on this journey together. All the best everyone. May Allah ease all the good things that we wish to do. And may the good changes we make this month, become permanent. Ramadhan kareem :)