My Dusty Old Shelf

I can't believe the last time I was here, I wrote about my graduation, and now I am writing about mummy essentials! I am now a junior doctor and a mother to a gorgeous 8 month old baby girl. Currently taking nine months off work to spend time with my baby and my loved ones and it has been absolutely wonderful!  Quite a lot of my friends are also new or expecting mums and it has been so lovely having people to share knowledge and experience with. So without further ado! Since my list of "newborn essentials" is quite extensive, I have divided it up to mummy's and baby's.  (Also, I am a fully breastfeeding mummy so a lot of these items will not apply to you if you are not planning to breastfeed) 1. Nursing pillow You will spend an incredible amount of time breastfeeding, especially in the early days. Find one that's firm so your baby is well-supported.  I got a simple U shaped pillow with a removable cover - it gets covered in spit up in no time lol. We also used

Alhamdulillah. Just over two months ago, I graduated from med school. Something that I occasionally thought might not happen. This girl's a doctor! After two years of IB. Five years of medicine. Countless exams. I actually made it. And now, I've just entered my second month working as a junior doctor. I've struggled a lot through med school. My confidence has been knocked down time and time again, and towards the end of it, I honestly had close to zero confidence left. I was worried about my capabilities as a medical student, let alone a doctor. Alhamdulillah after a month working, I can confirm that how we do in med school doesn't correlate to how good a doctor we will be. I am slowly building back my confidence. I am so thankful for all the love and support that I've received from my family and friends. My mum and dad's prayers. And my husband. God, there were difficult days where I were at my lowest. He would always be there to help me get u

Alhamdulillah. On Friday, the 21st of December, we tied the knot! We were high school sweethearts. We met when we were in Form 1. We became friends then later classmates. I had a huge crush on him in Form 2 (gatai naa). I pretended I didn't have an HB pencil to use for lukisan teknik so I could continuously borrow his. Oh young love HAHAH kalau anak aku macam ni, aku sepak. We started dating not long after and continued so until the end of school. And our story takes a break there. We went our separate ways after school ended and we barely kept in touch. We both met other people, and we never saw each other for 5 years. As fate would have it, we met again about a year and a half ago. We both thought the other wasn't single and just caught up as friends. And the rest were just a blur. I knew I fell for him again when we were driving around aimlessly in my car and I had to look away from his smile because I felt like my heart was about to burst. And I never wante

As time goes on, I honestly feel like I have a problem with commitment. To this blog I mean. Haha Sooooooo I made it to final year! Woohoo! Who would've thought, seriously. I'm pretty hopeless with my studies... And I can't believe it's already November! It's SJT next month and I am scareddddd. A part of me wants to stay and finish my training here but another part of me just reallyyy wants to go home. 5 years away is a little too long. (+ the 2 years in Banting too which makes 7). So for now, I am applying for a junior doctor job in the UK. But working or not working tu, we'll cross that bridge when we get there.

It's 5 minutes to 4am and I am currently wide awake and typing away. Only been back a day and it's already electives. Which is so stupid tbh. It gives very little room to rest and prepare. So I'm trying to make the best of my horrible jetlag, by reading up on Paeds stuff before I start today. Obviously not doing a very good job since I'm blogging right now but oh well. I want to talk about happy things now to take my mind off this sense of dread. . . . So I arrived yesterday evening at 10pm. My parents had work the next day and there were no late night flights from KL to JB. Of course my dad said he'll pick me up but I really didn't want him to make the long journey and have to miss the next day of work.  So fiancé to the rescueeee. But... he thought I was arriving at 11pm. I have no idea why. He had my flight tickets, my itinerary and I probably have mentioned it to him once or twice (or a hundred times ...) Okay, maybe I know why. I kept telling

Only three months left until fourth year ends. And I still feel like I know nothing. It's actually kinda scary. In less than a year, I would be sitting my final, final exam. (Well given that I pass fourth year this summer...) And I would not trust my life to myself if I were my own doctor HAHAHA Okay no, please trust me, future patients!! This year has been pretty tough. A lot has happened and a lot are happening. I gotta step up my game. I haven't studied, let alone revise.  My plan is to khatam buku Clinical Specialties and Clinical Medicine. Because I am soooo lazy. And I think it's a start? Ngeheh :P I bought myself a £3 weekly organiser so I could trick myself into thinking that I am actually organised, in hopes that I will become organised at some point. Good luck lah kan. Well anyway, I cannot afford a resit this year. With electives, and my clinginess... I need my full summer break. It's already short enough as it is -__- Please pray f

Soooooo overdue. I turned 24 almost 2 months ago. But I've gotten so bad at updating my blog, it's actually insane. So, 24. Almost a quarter of a century old. But to be honest, I still feel like I'm 18. (And hopefully look it too HAHA) I have achieved things that I want to achieve. And I also still have so much more to do. I have figured out some parts of my life, made plans for it, and hoping for the best. But I still have so much more to learn. I had one of the best birthdays this year. Showered with so many thoughtful wishes and prayers. And I was able to enjoy myself. Fully. I am blessed. Truly blessed. With everything that has happened this past year, I never thought I could be here. My 23rd year of living was a roller coaster ride. Fast, with sudden dives and totally not under my control. And this bliss that I feel right now, there's no word for it. To my 24th year of living, may it be filled with love, lessons and light. As it will be m